worry

Sometime i think i worry too much. mostly about the people i loved. I know it looks normal but in many occasion, this worry lead me to useless, time consuming and unconstructive behavior. My hart beats faster and i loose my focus. Unfortunately, i often do mistake when i loose my focus.

My mom fully understand it. She almost never tell me any bad news except urgent things which involved my family members. It very helpful but also dilemmatic. The way she managed that info makes me not uptodate enough and feels too behind. It makes me not supportive enough for my beloved ones. hmmm...

Since living at Jakarta, a litle far from my family and my lovely echi, i learn to control it. Not 100% successful yet but it shows some good progress. Bad news always come and i still worry too much... but i trying hard to keep focus.